My LifeJournal: Lost

When abah left us,
we were saying how he
wouldn't be able to see his newest grandson.

Now he can.
Insyaallah.

My LifeJournal: Al Fatiha

Al Fatiha.


Another test from الله.
Another lost in the family.
The long awaited gift from الله.

He was born on 27 Aug.
And he left us on 27 Aug.
But I know الله loves him more.

We thought everything was okay.
We talked and laughed during break fast.
And then we said our goodbyes.

But as we were about to leave,
My cousin called, and he was weeping on the phone.
My heart string was pulled again.
And we rushed back.

We were worried and overwhelmed with everything.
We were practically begging to staff,
to let us up.
They made a call and,
"All of you can go up now. All of you. Hurry."

We got up and saw him in tears.
Constantly kissing his baby.
His baby, so beautiful, lying there.
Doctors surrounding him.

The doctor wheeled his mother in.
And she was almost wailing,
asking them to let her carry the baby.

In the midst of everything,
they couldn't resist taking pictures.
To preserve the lost memories.

And soon, the entire family flooded the NICU.
Most of us was in tears.
Body shaking uncontrollably.

He came out, and then he looked at me.
He smiled a sad smile as he said,
"Sidin"

And the next day felt like deja vu.
It was all too familiar.
None of us slept well,
as we waited for light to appear.

And soon, his body was brought back.
And we said our final goodbyes and prayers.

Tears rolling down my cheeks.
As I look at his beautiful face.
Fair skin with brown eyebrows.
He looked so peaceful.
He looked like he was asleep.

Then I lowered myself.
And kissed him on his forehead.
He was icy cold.
I pulled away and cried again.

And then my cousin went up to the front.
Cradling his baby in his arms.
As he Adhan.

His voice cracked.
As memories of his late father,
and now his son, floods in.
But soon, he began to Redha,
And continued the Adhan with a
much firmer and louder voice.

And the rest of us at the back.
We silently cried as we prayed along.

Nevertheless, I know his baby is the luckiest one.
He left us on a Friday Night.
During the holy month of Ramadhan.
The world was crying with us the whole night.
The whole Masjid Istighfar
prayed for him in the Solat Jenazah.


We love him so much but الله loves him more.
May we meet you again in Heaven.


Indeed this year is full of obstacles.
But I know one thing is for sure.
الله loves me and my family.
As He puts us through so many tests.
Which He knows, we all can make it through.
And I know that He will bestow us with
10 more wonderful years.
In return for this one.
Insyaallah.


الله loves
Muhd Syafiq Bin Mohd Shahril.





I love my family so much, it hurts.

My LifeJournal: Retreat

Retreat was awesome.
I get to build raft,
I get to swim at the Quary,
I get to jump of the quary,
I get to swim and soak in the water.

I'd always love doing such activities.
Get to do it again!

My LifeJournal: Thank God It's Friday

Playing with Dry Ice.

Yeap, Friday Madness.

My LifeJournal: Nureen's and Cousin's

Pictures up by almost a week late.

So much had happened and this party was almost cancelled.

Nevertheless, pretend today is 4 Aug.
Happy Birthday Nureen.

Then, pretend that today is 9 Aug.
Happy Birthday Cousin!
Thanks for choosing to celebrate your 21st with us family.


And to SG too.


=)

My LifeJournal: Nureen's First

Shaihana Nureen Juzailah's First.

"Can you see my tooth?"

No, you're only 1.

What?

So princessy.

Pretty in Pink.

Must have the songket background.

My LifeJournal: Balloons!

That and many more.

My LifeJournal: Cake Cutting Ceremony

Cousins, Zafrin and Arfan.

*cheese*

Family Portrait.

Papa and Nureen.

Half of the Cousins Army.

1 month and half apart.

Ayah and Nureen.

Saving the cake frenzy.

Feeling at studio.

Family!

My LifeJournal: Hungry Cousin

Bone Licking good right cousin.

My LifeJournal: Birthday Guests

Humairah!

Uncle and Humairah.

Sick Nabil.

Afiqah all grown up.

And the others playing games!

My LifeJournal: Presents for Nureen

For the kids.

Pretty bag and box.

One of the presents.

Too big for her.

Too young for Polo Ralph!

OshKosh B'Gosh is out!

Thanks All!

My LifeJournal: Random Moments

Bored Nephews.

Told you they're bored.

Wearing the national colour,
enjoying the parade.

My LifeJournal: Cousin's 21st

Cousin in love.

Birthday gift from us.
(except that hot shades)



Happy 21st Cousin!
His birthday was on the 9th.
Yeap, same as SG's 44th.

My LifeJournal: Maya is prettty smart

I used to not know how to blog.
The blog skin templates or
adding players to my site scares me.
Cos I know no shit.

A tech idiot I must say.
But everything changed
after studying in polytechnic.

I slowly observe and learn how to use laptops,
dare to edit templates and codes.
Learn to read up and dare to make the changes.


I almost fainted when I can't log on.
"The User Profile Service failed the logon. User profile cannot be loaded."
It says.

Waited for my brother to fix it could take ages.
So I took matters onto my own hands.
I asked Help-IT 1 question.
He said .\admin.
And I hit jackpot.
I searched for the solutions on the online forums.
And I found it.

Regedit.

.bak

.bk

RefCount.

And other stuff and I managed to login!

But of course, that wasn't the end.
All my stuff was gone, though it wasn't suppose to be so.
So I searched through the online forums again,
and lucky for me I was granted permission
to my username folder.

So I log off and log in with the proper username and password.
And ting!
My Captain James Tiberius Kirk is back on my desktop. :)


Maya is pretty smart after all.
It only goes to show, that I can do anything
when I set my mind into it.


Screenshots help alot!

My LifeJournal: Death

It's something new to me.
The death of a love one.

The saying, "We have no control over death"
Is something long known but never understood.

Is the sudden death of someone worse,
or the anticipation of someone's death?




"And so I curled up, crying in bed.
The anticipation nearly drove me insane.
But a voice in my head told me to redha.
And I found myself falling into a deep sleep."

My LifeJournal: Tell

I wanted to tell, but I don't know how.
I wanted to tell, but I just couldn't.
I wanted to tell, but something stopped me.
I wanted to tell, but I've got no one.






So I turned to Allah instead.

My LifeJournal: Preparing for Aug 9

Photo Exhibition.

His Accepted.

Sean reminiscing.

Wishes.

My LifeJournal: Shocked

Alhamdulillah.

My LifeJournal: Blood

"I came out, and he was lying in a pool of blood.
Towels laid, soaked with blood.

Kak, banyak darah kak,
she said, her voice cracking.
Tears in her eyes.
It pulled my heartstring.

I had wanted to cry.
But everytime I look at someone else,
I decide that I should be strong.
I clenched my jaws and looked away."










2009 is really not a good year.
But its okay.
Allah gave me 10 good years,
after a bad 1.




Ya Allah, please let there be no phone calls tonight.
Please don't let it be the C word.
Please let everything be alright.
Ya Allah, please protect my families and the people I love.



I love my family so much it hurts.