My LifeJournal: Al Fatiha

Al Fatiha.


Another test from الله.
Another lost in the family.
The long awaited gift from الله.

He was born on 27 Aug.
And he left us on 27 Aug.
But I know الله loves him more.

We thought everything was okay.
We talked and laughed during break fast.
And then we said our goodbyes.

But as we were about to leave,
My cousin called, and he was weeping on the phone.
My heart string was pulled again.
And we rushed back.

We were worried and overwhelmed with everything.
We were practically begging to staff,
to let us up.
They made a call and,
"All of you can go up now. All of you. Hurry."

We got up and saw him in tears.
Constantly kissing his baby.
His baby, so beautiful, lying there.
Doctors surrounding him.

The doctor wheeled his mother in.
And she was almost wailing,
asking them to let her carry the baby.

In the midst of everything,
they couldn't resist taking pictures.
To preserve the lost memories.

And soon, the entire family flooded the NICU.
Most of us was in tears.
Body shaking uncontrollably.

He came out, and then he looked at me.
He smiled a sad smile as he said,
"Sidin"

And the next day felt like deja vu.
It was all too familiar.
None of us slept well,
as we waited for light to appear.

And soon, his body was brought back.
And we said our final goodbyes and prayers.

Tears rolling down my cheeks.
As I look at his beautiful face.
Fair skin with brown eyebrows.
He looked so peaceful.
He looked like he was asleep.

Then I lowered myself.
And kissed him on his forehead.
He was icy cold.
I pulled away and cried again.

And then my cousin went up to the front.
Cradling his baby in his arms.
As he Adhan.

His voice cracked.
As memories of his late father,
and now his son, floods in.
But soon, he began to Redha,
And continued the Adhan with a
much firmer and louder voice.

And the rest of us at the back.
We silently cried as we prayed along.

Nevertheless, I know his baby is the luckiest one.
He left us on a Friday Night.
During the holy month of Ramadhan.
The world was crying with us the whole night.
The whole Masjid Istighfar
prayed for him in the Solat Jenazah.


We love him so much but الله loves him more.
May we meet you again in Heaven.


Indeed this year is full of obstacles.
But I know one thing is for sure.
الله loves me and my family.
As He puts us through so many tests.
Which He knows, we all can make it through.
And I know that He will bestow us with
10 more wonderful years.
In return for this one.
Insyaallah.


الله loves
Muhd Syafiq Bin Mohd Shahril.





I love my family so much, it hurts.